Tml's off day again.
And I've decided to pick up music once again.

I'm always afraid of asking too much because I'm afraid of expecting too much and ended up being disappointed.
And right now, I don't know what exactly is asking for too much and what ain't.

=(

An i asking for too much, stressing myself with stupid stuff or what?
I don't know why I'm feeling vexed and helpless.

All i want is a lively life, like a much healthier lifestyle.
Not one that you lie on your bed and watch tv once you had your dinner.. then fall asleep.
Or laze around here and there, not wanting to do anything except those that is necessary and waste your life away..

I can't help but feel sad about my life.
Like wtf.

It's Monday again, which means that it's off day.

I've finally changed my old-and-torn-and-ugly Guess wallet to Braun Buffel's Macht L-389 in white and I'm loving it so damn much.
But my cards and all make it look so damn fat.

And now, I'm looking forward to change my Samsung phone (equipped with distortion in its speaker and scare the hell out of me when my oh-so-soothing alarm becomes some failed-until-like-shit rock song) to HTC Desire HD cuz HD2 is out of stock and HD7 seems a bit too risky to get.
Wanted to get Iphone 4 initially but gotta wait 2 - 3 weeks for it to arrive. So might as well wait 2 - 3 weeks to see how's the Desire HD is.

Time to change my life for the better.

Incomplete.

But i dare not to pursue it.
Cuz I'm afraid of changes.
And afraid of the outcome unless I'm sure that it is.

Feeling sick and tired of every single thing.
Sick and tired of my messy room.
Sick and tired of having to wake up feeling tired.
Sick and tired of not being appreciated.
Sick and tired of giving endlessly.
Sick and tired of not having enough to spend.
Sick and tired of this f. hot weather in Singapore.

Sick and tired of.. everything.

I'm aiming at getting my own apartment before the age of 30.
With such, i have 9 years to work for it!

<3

Actually, working in Simei ain't that bad.

Got Niwa Sushi.
Got LJS and BK and KFC.
Got 2 food court and a coffeeshop.
Got various eateries, snack stalls, etc.
Got 3 bubble tea shop.
Got Watson's.
Got Challenger.
Got Pet Safari.
Got supermarket.
Got Starbucks.
Got Popular.

lol.
Not bad la..

And my $19 Bata heels feels oh-so-comfy to wear now when initially i have the urge to throw it away after wearing it for 5 minutes.
lol.

Today's off day but somehow, I'm having mixed feelings about it.
Like when you're working, you're looking forward to off day. But when you're actually having your off day, you have nothing to do that you feel like you're wasting your day away.
Somehow i wish that i have things to do on my off day, like meeting people for lunch or being able to spend the day with my boy. Nothing beats being able to spend time feeling all comfy, safe and secured.
But they're impossible when your off day is on Monday cuz everyone's busy.
Awww.
I can foresee what will happen when I get my salary and i have nothing to do on my off day.
lol.

Maybe I'm just being too greedy.
Like hoping for my rest day to come, and when it comes, I'm asking for more by hoping that i have something to do.
Why does it sound so contradicting?
Haa.
omg i think i'm going crazy.

GG.